016. three years ago

Sitting here stuck in an airport again trying to talk myself off this ledge that is anxiety riddled panic coupled with extreme sadness sprinkled with some good ole rage! I can not breath deep enough to stop my heart from racing and I absolute hate that feeling, as Im sure most of us do. NYC has always been a place for me that recharges my battery and the fact that I am not going to enjoy what little time I did have just boils my blood. This life of chasing your dreams is so rocky and at some point I will not be able to keep up this stress that is ODB. I love that I made a choice to follow my dreams 3 years ago, but holy shit is this starting to get to me!