Sitting here stuck in an airport again trying to talk myself off this ledge that is anxiety riddled panic coupled with extreme sadness sprinkled with some good ole rage! I can not breath deep enough to stop my heart from racing and I absolute hate that feeling, as Im sure most of us do. NYC has always been a place for me that recharges my battery and the fact that I am not going to enjoy what little time I did have just boils my blood. This life of chasing your dreams is so rocky and at some point I will not be able to keep up this stress that is ODB. I love that I made a choice to follow my dreams 3 years ago, but holy shit is this starting to get to me!
